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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on Apr 24, 2012 15:28:56 GMT -5
This journal will engulf me in the end thereof, but here we go anyway.
My name is Victor Michael Lashewitz. I do have a blog on google if you can find it under the last name Lashewitz. Callirhoe is derived a derivative from part of my last name and is an Aramaic and Greek word that implies a split creek or to Call (to Christen or Baptise) and in Latin denotes a violet or indigo flower. Now that all being said we can move on now and get to my journal. I do hope you enjoy the ride.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on Apr 24, 2012 15:36:22 GMT -5
Soooo much has happened to me over the last year and a half since I made a major journal post in now defunct 3rd old (Poet Stage site) much like Martin White I too was homeless for three months. The nursing home I lived in kicked me out and then I went to the nut house you might say. Then I moved to a nursing home for four months after three months in that psychiatry ward. From there I was sent to a wound care clinic for three months. I went to a different nursing home just for my stuff to be stolen from me. My laptop, a back up hard drive, and two USB port memory reader cards wre stolen from me along with clothing, grooming supplis, and my glasses. believe me I was ticked off to the extreme. On top of that I was assaulted by my ex roommate and socked in the left eye. I had another visit to the nut house for two months and reside in thus yet another nursing home to date.
Oh yeah somewhere inbetween all of that nonsense I started attending a university online. So yeah I am stoked LOL... And I am maintaining and "A" aversage. I am working on an degree in Computer Information Technology. So all in all I am thrillfed and love the college life so to say.
The great prestigious university I am attending is an online acedamy called Ivy Bridge College Tiffin University Academy online. It is expnsive around 900 to 1300 a class depending the credit hours, lab work, and books along with school supplies. I 3ill work on first my assosciates, then bachloers, and finally my masters degree. So please wish me luck.
My health isn't what it should be but I am content. I am obese now being now near 300 pounds. This doesn't make me happy or sit well with my mum and pop but thus it is life and all is fair in love and war.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on Apr 30, 2012 10:44:10 GMT -5
Well I go back to classes next Monday. Iam working hard to achieve my dreams of a college degree. I feellike I am well educated and prepared for the challenges of school.My goal is to achieve the highest grade point average I can which is straight A's of course.
One of my school buddies got married this weekend. I am happy for him. I miss and love my ex but such is life. I know God has someone special for me named Elizabeth Joan. I wish nothing but the best for Joyce Yvonne Wood Savage,
I get my 40 dollar allowance this Friday. Yippee I think. I am going to buy a fleece queen size blanket and also a sweatshirt hoodie from the onlin University I am attending. So I am stoked to say the least.
I hav another urinary tract infection. They hurt and burn like anything. I am takingg an antibiotic, but I don't think it is doing its job.
I have my school books so today I will give them a lookse to start prepare for my two classes the first summmer term. My expectations are high. So please wish me luck and pray for e that I do well I praytel asketh of thee.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 1, 2012 20:48:46 GMT -5
I received an e-mail letting me know my school books will be here tomorrow for they have been shiopped out for my online college classes that start next Monday. I am very excited and eager to continue mmy studies. I so badly want to earn my associates degree, then my bachleors degree, and then my masters degree. I have nothing to do but sit around all day. I know I will do well, but I have the aptitude to do real well and succeed so we will see.
I got a mastercard today. Considering I have bad credit it is a start to repair my awful credit. I don't have much money, but I ordered pizza one night on the card hehe. I know I don't have money. I guess it is stealing. I don't think I will not pay it back. I do have every inclination and intentions of paying it back. I really don't need anything. So having a credit limit of 300 dollars is not allot but it is a start.
I ordered a fleece blanket and a fleece college hoodie sweatshirt. the blanket is a burgundy color. The sweatshirt is black with a hite stripe don the center of the sleeve. I know I will enjoy it.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 3, 2012 10:08:51 GMT -5
Hi gang, i am glad to see Timbo joined the group from the old site. the more the merrier they say. i am waiting to receive my school books hopefully they will arrive today. i am looking forward to my classes. i hope i do well. i want good grades. if i do well i can get a 9,000 dollar extra scholarship grant. which is great for me LOL....
i ordered a fleece blanket that should arrive today. i also ordered a fleece sweat jacket hoodie that should arrive here friday since today is thursday.
i love music so much. i am happy to find a song i love performed by the rock group "LIVE." I have been loookiing for it for years for a song called *lightning crashes.* i just didn't know what the name of the group was that performed the song. but hey i am stoked because it is my second favorite song in the whole wide world. i got lucky to find it.
i ordered food out today. so i am enjoying myself LOL...
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 7, 2012 8:09:33 GMT -5
I officially start my classes today. Well in actuality I started my classes yesterday evening. It looks like a lot of work but I am ready for it. Two classes should be easy to focus on since I want to achieve the highest grade point average that I can. I know I fan do it for all I have to do is apply myself. Earning a college degree is a dream of mine. It is not easy, but it is not hard either to achieve. Focus and disciple is the key to succeed.
I am taking reading comprehension class and an anatomy and physiology class. I hope to learn allot. Methinks I will get B's in both classes. My anxiety is very high right now. I have butterflies in my tummy and I am really nervous. Meeting new people is making me nervous for me myself. Anyway...
I wrote a gem Prose piece a few days ago. Everyone who read my writing piece"Prose, Poetry, And All Its Metaphors" really enjoy the beauty essence of my delving into exploration of creativity of writing.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 9, 2012 9:28:26 GMT -5
Ok... my head is spinning. My Phisiology and Anatomy class is very hard. Allot of memorization. I definitely have my work cut out for me. I started school classes Monday. We shall see how I do. My xpectations are high, but my sights and sails are steady.
My time writing poems while dimminish but without a college degree you don't make denaro LOL...
I have two papers due tonight so I don't have time to type what is up in my life right now.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 10, 2012 7:13:03 GMT -5
Well I finished both my papers last night late or early in the morning around 3;00 am to say the least. I think iI got an A on my reading assignment, but propbably a C on my Phisiology class. I want to memorize more than I can. I want to memorize everything but I guess I will settle for succeeding by doing the class work. Hey I am a perfectionist LOL...
I know this school work will cut into my poetry time immensely. I will be in school 28 of the next 31 weeks. But it wil lbe well worth it me feels. I want my college degree so bad. I know my goal of straight A's is not realistic but you never know. I at least want my degree so we shall see. Maybe I will still get in a few poem...but my school work is more worth it. ...as much as I love poetry ahmahmmm...
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 11, 2012 9:50:33 GMT -5
Another day started for me. I woke up to a resident screaming. They are having a meeting because residents are complaining about this guy especially me... I can't sleep and he keeps entering my room. All he does is scream loud and violently. He seems like he was a jerk before he got hurt in his inward thoughts at least. I prayed to God for him to be taken care of. Maybe I don't mean it but I should care.
I got my homework situated. I realise I have to pace myself with my school work. Ithink I will do okay in my English writing class. But I feel my Anatomy Physiology class is going to be a dousy LOL...
I worked on two assignments this morning. So I am proud of myself. I so much want a college degree if just to show myself I can accomplish something. Life sometimes seems so bleak. Maybe I will work on my book LOL...
I am so tired also. Maybe I will take a quick nap.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 13, 2012 13:19:19 GMT -5
I am doing homewoprk now for my English comprehension c;ass. I realize I need to put an effort forth to show I am intelligent. But, this stuff assignment wise is so boring. Now I know why I need to relearn this stiuff. ust wish it was not so boring. Everything is so detailed. Handed in an assignment last night. Hopefully I will psass the writing assignment. It wasn't easy to do and I just hope I get a passing grade on it. geesh oh golly miss molly as they say.
I will look back on this when I get an online degree and be thankful for the oppurtunity to move forward. At least the assignments help me pass the day. Computers certainly open the door to infinite possiblitities that is for sure.
I miss hangin out onpoetry forum chattin all day long, but school work is more important. Well I have rested enough. Time to go back to the old drawing door. I read Martin's exciting life compared to mine.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 17, 2012 7:07:49 GMT -5
Well I am doing better in classes so far then i actually expected. I have 86 average in english writing class and 90 average in anatomy physiology class after 11 days of class and YIPEE is all i can say.
last night i handed in my writing journal and i did real god on my science pper. something to be real proud of if you know what i mean.
i talked to my aunt elise on the phone also last night. i know she really thinks for the most poart people think negative of her because he smokes andd drinks. she can see this message up there and see thayt i love her and don't judge her for smoking or drinking. i love her dearly. i wish other relatives would talk to me like her.
i don't write many poems during class time because doing internet classes is very time consuming for the most part. i don't even have time to comment and make many remarks on poetry forums including this onee. i kee;p up the journal to practice writing. i make grammar mistakes all the time for the most part. here as an example i try to keep propper sentence structure and spelling mistakes down ton a minimuim. to begin with i will be in class 13 of the next 14 weeks in actuality i will only have six days off. so i am just a bit apprehensive. but i did get A's in all the classes up to this point.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 19, 2012 9:47:13 GMT -5
Well it is time for aniother salami. Well seriously I am tired as anything and stressed out to the maxium. I new guy in the unit in this facility is a nut or an asshole either way or both just the same. He is blind and md at the world. i will hit him he has swung at me and they f---ing don't care, and that is life folks. i am taking serious medication adavan to calm me diwn to say the least.
doing ell in my classes but have much homework still. i guess the good thing aboutr not sleeping last night i caught up on homework. yipee yaea ki mother fucha.... hey e are children friendly. i think i will get B in both classes. i am looking forward actually to my oceanography class next summer term. yippee ah ki mutha fer... ok really now am i that censored bleep bleep *****
ok i wrote an awesome poem last night and shocked someone. male or female she got me to think about my presented write so thank you dear lady or sir. so very much. my angels tell me omeone fell in love with me. why couldnt i hav met that wonderful lady bfore i got hurt. only good thing about my paralysis and predictament is i get to go to college and i am doing well there yippe ki yeah yahoo....
i have been pain in my body, couldn't sleep but headache finally went away about 20 minutes ago butt my joints hurt like anything ouch can you say ouch!
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 24, 2012 18:08:33 GMT -5
okay, i am doing well in school. i think i will get a "B" in my English class and i may or might even get an ":A" in my anatomy physiology class. i am stoked. this class is hard.
something amn incident happened in the nursing home today. an aid got attacked by a resident here. he is a violent guy. they carted him off to a mental lock down ward. the guy is a jerk. i see why god allowed that to happen to him. he screamed all the time. they tied him down and hauled him off. i was told this place will not take him back. and good ridance. i freaked out today. he walked fast away from the aid. he walked towarrds my window and the aid said grab my hand let6s go this is not your room. he put her in a choke hold and hurt her. the aid said it hurt afterwards. i can't move or i would have killed the f00er. i was enraged. i told the guy to let go of her or i will kill you "MF". well he let go off. they were wrestling for a momemnt and i thought they might go out the window, my heart aches and i freaked out. i was so nervous for a few minutes. no one wants to see a pretty girl attacked. if the nursing home didnt kick him out i would have lured him towards my bed and cracked him in the temple with my landline phone jail or no jail. i don't likeb that what i saw.
anyway my stomach and nerves are upset over this ordeal. god i hate being paralyzed. he couldof killed her.
my clsses are going well. i am happy. i will get my associate degree in computer technology.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on May 27, 2012 8:57:42 GMT -5
Well I had an interesting week. First, that guy was carted off they are not letting him back here thank god. that aide is working today. she is okay despite being sore. the english teacher corrected my grade in class. i have a 89.75 iin class. o so close to an A in class. i am orking hard. have a composition paper due tonighht. i feel so tired though. my anatomy physiology class i have a solid 89.55 so i am stoked there. both classes are very challanged b,but i am utting my time to good use thank goodness. my nephews are over my parents house so i got to talk to both of them yesterday on the pone. i wish i could be more actibve in their lives. i want children of my own, but i am paralyzed. the life stuinks but thank god i still have my mind. i am learning so much in english class.
omorrow is a national holiday. it is memorial day. we celebrate veterans who died for our country. before school starts back up we celebrate veterans day. i wish i had made a career in the nave not the army. but i was not smart enough back then. i am definitely overcoming my learning disabilities. i believe i will graduate with a B average with some A's once i get my associates degree in computer information technology. yippee. that is all i can say about that. but of course we will see.
i got my money for my stolen laptop that was stolen in january. the otheer nursing home heartland gave me a check for 1300 dollars. i am glad i can put thi nightmare to rest, well at least i got my stuff or money compensated for.
i am having a mild aniety attack this morning. i wish i could keep at it in the poetry world more but a college degree is more important to mre then most realise. it is a life dream of mine.
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Post by larsenmcallirhoe on Jun 3, 2012 3:11:32 GMT -5
another day another dollar it is just all the same. i still remember her face after all these years.
I start the fifth week of schiool and Ihave a 91 percent average in both clasees. i realisei could get B's in both classes but i would still becontent. i do want a's badly soi willbog down and study if you know what i mean.
i am feeling lonely and depressed. i need to hug a pretty female whim smells good for i don't feel wanted by the human race for the same reason god wants us to improve as a human race in whole.
i wrote a depressing poem tonight entitled "Just Ordinary People"
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