Post by larsenmcallirhoe on Jan 1, 2014 2:56:14 GMT -5
Okay folks before you read my work here it is a Prose Piece and is very long. Just want you to know before you make commitment to read my poem, because some people don't like reading longer poems. And, May you have a Save and Happy New Years Folks...
Poem, Visions of My Sanity
If I look you eye to eye
would you know my soul ever knew
and look deeper into the river of my heart
where every person eventually sojourns
The fire that lite the spark of my burning soul
by a match flame that only burns for me for so long
The candle can only burn as long as there is fuel
before it melts all the wax that lights my star filled world
My tears fall from my eyes like so long ago where this mystery all began
I drank too much wine and booze that night you left my side
where all my tears fell filling this ocean up with the salty tears of my natural life
this fantasy where you’re alive forever came crashing through the floor
A grave marker is the only memory I have left of you that I hold ever so dear
like the sun that gazes on us all from the start in this blistering heat
Even in the winter as the snow is falling heavily onto the ground
I look at the mirror and realize it is cold as hell outside all around
And, still I am proselyting you
by telling you every memory that I hold sacred and dear that is so very real and true
treasured times missed from some long gone occurrences in my life because I am blue
that makes my heartache ever so like a child crying in the middle of the night
after some bad nightmare this infant had
a dream that really stirs my spirit into chaos
if you really see what I mean about this loving child who I am
Some distant drummer pounding away on my thoughts
pertinacious emotions of things still yet to come
twisted words said in the heat of battle that should have never been said
You would take hold of my hands and take me where the tides drift
peacefully in and out to sea like a movie scene where lovers roll around in passion
My eyes are getting all misty on the inside
like a thunderstorm that will appear in the tropics
where I used to dwell
and the welting up on my face like melting snow in the heat
for this external clock has started winding on down
that is keeping my heart from pattering far away
into the realm of oblivion beyond every true reality
where I am about to lose grip of it all
questioning the sanity that is turning the hair of my balding head gray
A treasured picture of you
hold dear to my heart
Is all that I have left
If you only knew
What would you ever do
a memory of you tainted by illusions of grandeur
that you just don’t care
could it be any other way
Every now and then
I want to cry out loud
as I pray to my God for more than ever can be offered
It is like I have woken up from such a sad dream state
Where my world has disappeared from fears that come crashing in
Only distances that keep us so far apart
from touching one another’s hands in veracity
and still my heart bleeds yearning for only you
Where I currently live I am having flashbacks
of those sacred memories of yesteryears
when you all used to walk with me
It is Christmas time
and I currently reside in a Nursing Home
They had a Christmas Party a few days ago
and I longed for more then you will ever know
I saw all my relatives looking at me
these visiting hosts unseen by the natural eyes to all but me
smiling alone unknown to everyone else in the room
who were singing joyous carols and praises to our God
Jesus Christ the Lord of Lords and King of Kings of all eternal living hosts
Oh how my heart wept inside wondering
what all these old folks where really reflecting upon
I could see their remorseful fake smiles
like they were watching a scene out of an awful horror show
yet all abound in the room was love and adulation
and still all I could envision at this time was haunting memories
of all those that had touched my life so
and had come and gone from us
like a drop of water that evaporates in the sunlight
as each raindrop falls to the ground silently and slow
all I want to do us weep on their tombs of their burial site
All I see is you and I know darling I want to
thank you for the next day of my life before it is to late
Visions of heaven after all is said and done
those chosen dressed in the finest the Lord has to offer
And, still I look down on this world as everyone else
in this room is twirling all around
everywhere I look my tears are falling down to the ground
because I know God is judging the world
In several visions in 2001 I saw what God had in store
for those that don’t want to look his way
and this bitter pain crushes my heart ever so
The morning clouds have greyed my windows
for it is pouring rain outside
and all that I see on my wall is a picture of every memory
I have cherished about my life that has now shattered my faith
with every pain pill I swallow
I tell you I might not last the day if you aren’t in my life,
for a 1000 years I weep alone
I guess it all just has to end this way or maybe I am not trying to hard
I look at myself and see that I am no longer who I used to be
and I pray to God that my lovers would hold me tight and never let go
If I never have another minute with you so that you can see my children go
It hurts me on the inside but I know God has a reason
that is allowing all these demons to manifest in my families lives
and all I can do is hope they last through all the turmoil and tribulation
you see I am an old man now at heart, for I feel as though my soul
has lived longer than eternity has ever dreamed
You see it is cold outside and the snow is falling on the ground
and still I will always love you even though you were bitter to me
and took everything I had to offer and left me with nothing
but the sorrow I have built up inside
You see it is eating me up alive, but there is nothing I can do
All I have is this memory of you all knowing it will be the last time
I make a toast to you the Ghost on the wall that is turning my world upside down.
All that is left is a worn out bible with blood stains on it
where my tears have seen the majestic fall
Poem, Visions of My Sanity
If I look you eye to eye
would you know my soul ever knew
and look deeper into the river of my heart
where every person eventually sojourns
The fire that lite the spark of my burning soul
by a match flame that only burns for me for so long
The candle can only burn as long as there is fuel
before it melts all the wax that lights my star filled world
My tears fall from my eyes like so long ago where this mystery all began
I drank too much wine and booze that night you left my side
where all my tears fell filling this ocean up with the salty tears of my natural life
this fantasy where you’re alive forever came crashing through the floor
A grave marker is the only memory I have left of you that I hold ever so dear
like the sun that gazes on us all from the start in this blistering heat
Even in the winter as the snow is falling heavily onto the ground
I look at the mirror and realize it is cold as hell outside all around
And, still I am proselyting you
by telling you every memory that I hold sacred and dear that is so very real and true
treasured times missed from some long gone occurrences in my life because I am blue
that makes my heartache ever so like a child crying in the middle of the night
after some bad nightmare this infant had
a dream that really stirs my spirit into chaos
if you really see what I mean about this loving child who I am
Some distant drummer pounding away on my thoughts
pertinacious emotions of things still yet to come
twisted words said in the heat of battle that should have never been said
You would take hold of my hands and take me where the tides drift
peacefully in and out to sea like a movie scene where lovers roll around in passion
My eyes are getting all misty on the inside
like a thunderstorm that will appear in the tropics
where I used to dwell
and the welting up on my face like melting snow in the heat
for this external clock has started winding on down
that is keeping my heart from pattering far away
into the realm of oblivion beyond every true reality
where I am about to lose grip of it all
questioning the sanity that is turning the hair of my balding head gray
A treasured picture of you
hold dear to my heart
Is all that I have left
If you only knew
What would you ever do
a memory of you tainted by illusions of grandeur
that you just don’t care
could it be any other way
Every now and then
I want to cry out loud
as I pray to my God for more than ever can be offered
It is like I have woken up from such a sad dream state
Where my world has disappeared from fears that come crashing in
Only distances that keep us so far apart
from touching one another’s hands in veracity
and still my heart bleeds yearning for only you
Where I currently live I am having flashbacks
of those sacred memories of yesteryears
when you all used to walk with me
It is Christmas time
and I currently reside in a Nursing Home
They had a Christmas Party a few days ago
and I longed for more then you will ever know
I saw all my relatives looking at me
these visiting hosts unseen by the natural eyes to all but me
smiling alone unknown to everyone else in the room
who were singing joyous carols and praises to our God
Jesus Christ the Lord of Lords and King of Kings of all eternal living hosts
Oh how my heart wept inside wondering
what all these old folks where really reflecting upon
I could see their remorseful fake smiles
like they were watching a scene out of an awful horror show
yet all abound in the room was love and adulation
and still all I could envision at this time was haunting memories
of all those that had touched my life so
and had come and gone from us
like a drop of water that evaporates in the sunlight
as each raindrop falls to the ground silently and slow
all I want to do us weep on their tombs of their burial site
All I see is you and I know darling I want to
thank you for the next day of my life before it is to late
Visions of heaven after all is said and done
those chosen dressed in the finest the Lord has to offer
And, still I look down on this world as everyone else
in this room is twirling all around
everywhere I look my tears are falling down to the ground
because I know God is judging the world
In several visions in 2001 I saw what God had in store
for those that don’t want to look his way
and this bitter pain crushes my heart ever so
The morning clouds have greyed my windows
for it is pouring rain outside
and all that I see on my wall is a picture of every memory
I have cherished about my life that has now shattered my faith
with every pain pill I swallow
I tell you I might not last the day if you aren’t in my life,
for a 1000 years I weep alone
I guess it all just has to end this way or maybe I am not trying to hard
I look at myself and see that I am no longer who I used to be
and I pray to God that my lovers would hold me tight and never let go
If I never have another minute with you so that you can see my children go
It hurts me on the inside but I know God has a reason
that is allowing all these demons to manifest in my families lives
and all I can do is hope they last through all the turmoil and tribulation
you see I am an old man now at heart, for I feel as though my soul
has lived longer than eternity has ever dreamed
You see it is cold outside and the snow is falling on the ground
and still I will always love you even though you were bitter to me
and took everything I had to offer and left me with nothing
but the sorrow I have built up inside
You see it is eating me up alive, but there is nothing I can do
All I have is this memory of you all knowing it will be the last time
I make a toast to you the Ghost on the wall that is turning my world upside down.
All that is left is a worn out bible with blood stains on it
where my tears have seen the majestic fall